My Shell

In this shell..I find solace..

From the terrors of this world...

And the horrors of my mind..

In this shell..I find love..

And all other facets of happiness..

And what makes me smile..

In this shell...I make peace..

With those who have betrayed me..

And those who have hurt me..

In this shell..i watch my life roll by..

From a safe distance..

Careful not to disturb what makes me think..

Of why my soul shivers in the night..

Or why my eyes widen at the sight..of..

Fear...

Fear that grips my body...

Squeezes it to a pulp..

Drops me to the floor..

And leaves me to die..

Die...to live again..?

Live again..to die?

An endless cycle of confusion..

What is my purpose?

Do I live..or exist?

In this shell..I find this answer..

And that is to....exist.