Inspired by Rain

drip, drip, drip, drip, drip

the sounds i hear outside 

as God's liquid sunshine falls from above

Bringing life to those in need 

And every drop serving as a sign of hope

Showers of blessing released from the sky 

Glistening as rays of moonlight meet 

the gathered droplets on blades of grass 

Lying down, thinking, listening, relaxing 

As sunshine creates a rhythm of it's own 

To some it serves as a symbol of sadness

To others, a symbol of newness

To many, a symbol of life

To me, the commoner all of the above

And the reason to sleep well tonight

The Mind That I Hide

Inside my head, is a peculiar mind

A mind one can't fathom 

Or even begin to understand

In some situations, it's very helpful

In others, it was a detriment 

And the thoughts that used to pass through

I cannot even begin to comment

In my mind, I see people and things

Far more than I really should

In my mind some people annoy me 

But the thought never left that neighbourhood

In my mind I've had thoughts of death 

And inflicting pain

But if i did that, I wouldn't have anything to gain

My mind acts as a filter, and weeds out the few

who it thinks are genuwine, just one and two

And it also plays out scenarios

That i'd want  to happen based on intense emotions

My mind, the killer is what some call it

But that's not what it is

It just overworks, overthinks, and over-imagines

It used to hurt, now it tends to heal

It used to connive others, but now it's real 

It used to kill others, now it tries to save. 

It used to bury others in body bags

In shallow graves

But now it's transformed, clean, and renewed

It's because of Christ why it never killed you

The Ghosts Of My Past

From the actions of my past living

I've created many grotesque beings

Ghosts that seem to haunt and linger

In my valley of silent screams

There are times when my overactive mind 

Plunges itself to a hollow space 

And that's the time these ghosts attack me

Leaving my mind in it's desolate place

In years gone by people would normally say

There's the girl that took my stuff

Left me in pain and scars

Then walked away

Another few at one point could relay

compulsive liar! believe nothing she says

The ghosts attack again 

Twisting my mind through a complex maze

But, those times are gone

And a new being being formed

The ghosts that drilled and voided my mind

Left after it got transformed 

You too can kill those ghosts 

That linger in from your past living

Just transform the pattern of your thoughts

And start living in the light

A Preview Of My Life

Here I am, bound with my life's burdens

My mind troubled, my heart heavy-laiden

Unsure of my next move

Arms of safety I've sought to find

But ended up on the devil's footstool

Depths I've searched, and vast widths I've explored

And went on many missions

In search of myself

And found my sanity perched precariously

On the rugged edge of a cliff

Wisdom never found me, yet I craved the words of the wise

Years of hurt and foolish mistakes helped bring me to my demise

And Demise led to arrogance

And arrogance introuced me to pain

Wondering about the days when my sanity i will regain

But my sanity went in, and my enemies went out

Leaving me, standing, wondering,

Filled with infinite doubts

Excavating the earthshaken debris i call my life

To find at least one thing worth living for

Mommy, attacked by the wrath of the carcinogenic bug

Leaving me to think I'd be desolate within myself

With nobody left to snug

Shattering my heart beyond infinity

And creating a dark, lonely space 

With a want to be filled 

To fill the darkness, drew closer to friends

"Friends till the end, not following the trend"

They would always say to keep my mind straying

Then like a bullet to a bird's fragile frame

They'd shatter the fragile heart each day

I then searched for another love

Then lazily gave up my search

Males were not the answer to filling my void

Void ended up capturing my heart

And boy filling the void partially

And for 26 1/2 months, half my darkness was put away

Little by little, the dark void gained light

And little by little, wisdom revealed itself then i learned

"Fool me once, shame on you

Fool me twice, shame on me"

But to be fooled a quad times is stupidity at its best

My true fiends now weeded out, and my true friends recognised

The little light that made way it my void dimly shines

And the darkness slowly fading

With wisdom now on my side

And the Creator now my right hand

Life's burdens minutely fade, and a new being minutely formed

What Would Jesus Do?

As I live my life throughout today

Trying to make peace with you

Keep one thought throughout my mind

And ask "What would Jesus do?"

when people speak evil against my being 

And speak words that aren't true

Keep the motto on my mind

"What would Jesus do?"

When an enemy of mine asks for help

Or even just a minute or two

Instead of thinking of the pain they've caused 

Let me think "What would Jesus do?"

when I'm down in the dumps and feeling pain

And my hearts changes colour to blue

give me wisdom and help me remember

"What would Jesus do?"

When faced with daily decisions

help me be honest, fair and true

Let this be my thought to live by

"What would Jesus do?"

Let me promise that with each new day

I'll try to live like You

And that tomorrow i'll be guided by the motto

"What would Jesus do?"

Why Judge?

Who is a man to judge another

Just by the way he looks outside ?

I'm sure many stories are never judged

By the cover under which they reside

Who is a man to judge another

Just by the way he dresses?

If you don't like it, that's your problem 

Don't go publicly addressing it

Who is a man to judge another

Just by imagining what he does?

They never stop to find the truth 

Or find out why he goes

Who is a man to judge another

Just by his mistakes?

Everyone has a past they're not proud of

Just think of yours for heaven's sake!

Who is a man to judge another 

By past events so great?

You can't exprect to break a brother 

and enter through heaven's gates

"Judge not, and ye be not judged"

that's the quote of the day

a man should never have to be defined 

by what others have to say 

Bubbles

Have you ever watched as bubbles grew?

Did you see them float away as the charismatic wind blew?

Did they seem ubiquitous until the person stopped blowing them?

With their rainbow edge visible against cerulean skies?

The broken being lifted away

And freedom is underlaid to someone with imagination.

That's When I'll Stop

When the nights are not dark, and the days are not light.

 When forever does finally end, and the eyes have no sight.

 When ears cannot hear, and the grass never grows.

When silence is too loud, and the genius never knows.

When strength doesn’t strengthen, and flowers never bloom.

 When hearts can’t be broken, and eternity is too soon.

 When the wind never blows, and the rain is never wet.

When thunder can’t be heard, and the sun refuses to set.

 When angels don’t protect, and a fact is not true.

 When life can’t be lived, and the sky is not blue.

 When the truth is a lie, and the fake becomes so real.

The clock shows no time, and wounds never heal.

 When enjoyment isn’t fun, and bells cannot ring.

 When a race cannot be won, and a singer cannot sing.

 When pain does not hurt, and enemies never fight.

When rainbows have no color, and something wrong seems so right

When all these things finally happen, when they finally come true.

That’s when I, without a doubt, will stop loving you.

Sans Titre

I ask if i may kiss you

You just smile; no answer is necessary

My initial kiss is just a flirtation of our lips

My tongue lightly flicking

Like I am asking "Do you want me?"

The tip of my tongue runs all around your lips

Touching every part - Inside and out

over and over again

Tickling you;

Tickle goes my tongue

Now i press my lips gently to yours

Rubbing your lips back and forth against mine

Hot and fast

without long rest in any one place

Having such a need to go on

A trail of passion all over your face

Then back to your mouth

Our tongues dance together - we start exploring

I circle your tongue with the tip of mine,

then you echo the pattern back to me

I lick the sides, underside and top - you echo back

I suck your lower lip - you echo back

then,

We repeat

The sensations are driving our emotions

We develop a passion for each other

with your kisses fluctuating from passionate

to fierce,

the motion being rhythmic

Simuating our love

I ask again "Do you want me?"

I can tell that you do

No words are necessary...

LOVE♥

So tonight...I need you just a little bit more...

Than I ever thought I did...

Banking on the fact that I didn't like you..

As much as I said I did...

But you changed it all...

When you went and did what you did..

Saying that you love me..

And then you kissed my lips..

And this whirlwind of emotions..

Weakened me into your arms..

And I realised more than ever..

That you didn't have to use your charms...

You were just you..

And all of that just shined through..

And your smile...makes me brighter..

Than la luna brightens the lake's hue..

Sweet words..felt like the truth..

And I got even more compelled to tell you that I love you..

But I held back..

Banking on the fact..

That I didn't need to..

Because saying that and not meaning it..

Would destroy you..

Which would destroy me..

And love would become a figment of our imagination..

As you can clearly see...

But you never gave up..

And that surprised me..

Because I told you..once before..that love wasn't for me..

And like a preacher..you made me believe and have faith in love..

And like it was sent from heaven..it came down from above..

And you showered me with it..

And you bathed me with it...

Till I was engulfed by it..

And no, it never made me blind..

But open-minded to the thought...

That falling in love with you..

Should not have come with so many doubts..

And that falling in love with you..

Would wash me from the drought..

Of false relationships..

And silly ideas of surviving as friends with benefits..

And that's what I did...

So tonight I need you a little bit more than I thought I did..

So come a little closer so I can kiss your lips..

My Shell

In this shell..I find solace..

From the terrors of this world...

And the horrors of my mind..

In this shell..I find love..

And all other facets of happiness..

And what makes me smile..

In this shell...I make peace..

With those who have betrayed me..

And those who have hurt me..

In this shell..i watch my life roll by..

From a safe distance..

Careful not to disturb what makes me think..

Of why my soul shivers in the night..

Or why my eyes widen at the sight..of..

Fear...

Fear that grips my body...

Squeezes it to a pulp..

Drops me to the floor..

And leaves me to die..

Die...to live again..?

Live again..to die?

An endless cycle of confusion..

What is my purpose?

Do I live..or exist?

In this shell..I find this answer..

And that is to....exist.

Inspiration Of Music

The keen stars were twinkling,

And the fair moon was rising among them,

Dear Humility.

The guitar was engaged in melody,

But the notes were not sweet till you sung them

......... Again.

As the moon's soft splendour

Over the faint cold starlight of Heaven

Is thrown,

So your voice most tender

To the strings without soul had then given

Its own.

The stars will awaken,

Though the moon sleep a full hour later

Tonight;

No leaf will be shaken

Whilst the dews of your melody scatter

Delight.

Though the sound overpowers,

Sing again, with your dear voice revealing

A peculiar tone

That Of some world far from ours,

Where music and moonlight and feeling

Are one.

Bliss

In all my wanderings, round this world of care,

In all my griefs, god has given me my share;

My vexations past, I still have hopes to case

Wear a crown, jewels dazzle to last.

Imagination fondly stoops to trace,

The parlour splendors of that festive place.

My journey alone, swift winged arrows of light,

Tempest pause behind, Speedy is the flight.

Let the rich deride, proud disdain,

A blissful soul, simple blessings attain.

To me more dear, congenial to my heart,

Memories cherish, friends to part.

That light whose smiles kindle the Universe,

Darkness crumble away, leave behind the curse,

Condemned to hope's delusive mind

Obedient passions, will resign,

All will go, including My heart's design

In Search Of Myself

Finding myself was the hardest task I've ever done..

Broken fingernails and dirty hands were the result..

Of digging through the rubble I had become.

Being lost in a world of despair..

Is like that of a horrifying nightmare.

Paths lined with terrifying trees...

Whose branches claw at my skin..

And the darkness leaves me scared..

Afraid of what I'll find if I venture further within.

And it seems like I have nowhere to turn..

Each way looks the same..

Evil and menacing..

As if my very soul it craves.

But courage and determination pulls me through..

As I turn within myself and find that salvation has always been there inside me..

And as I leave along that sun-lit way..

I realise that life becomes easier..

Day by day.

Nothing Happens On It's Own

Lying around, Thinking deeply

About life and its crooked path

But what some of us fail to do

Is try to understand the math

We all have different sorrows

And for some, problems seem to have grown

But nothing

Except nothing

Happens on its own

There are some people in our world

Living with fears and broken dreams

And no one sees their inner tears

And their smiles are not what they seem

You may think that nobody cares

But remember God is always on His throne

And that nothing

Except nothing

Happens on its own

You think your life is messed up

And you may be forced to think hell is a place called home

And that your person is void and meaningless

And your soul is just as whispy as foam

But know that Jesus is always there for you

Keep the faith and in his peace you would have grown

And always remember that nothing

Except nothing

Happens on its own

Slides

I slide myself into you,

so soft so warm,

I feel your tongue upon my skin

keeping me from harm

I feel so lucky, love at first sight

I tried to restrain myself

when I saw you on that night

we mesh so well

I love being in you

At first you were so tight

As I moved inside of you

and you on me

I knew we were meant to be

I am so glad I found you

If people only knew

This is not a dirty poem

Its about a damn SHOE!

Alone- Maya Angelou

 Lying, thinking

Last night

How to find my soul a home

Where water is not thirsty

And bread loaf is not stone

I came up with one thing

And I don't believe I'm wrong

That nobody,

But nobody

Can make it out here alone.

Alone, all alone

Nobody, but nobody

Can make it out here alone.

There are some millionaires

With money they can't use

Their wives run round like banshees

Their children sing the blues

They've got expensive doctors

To cure their hearts of stone.

But nobody

No, nobody

Can make it out here alone.

Alone, all alone

Nobody, but nobody

Can make it out here alone.

Now if you listen closely

I'll tell you what I know

Storm clouds are gathering

The wind is gonna blow

The race of man is suffering

And I can hear the moan,

'Cause nobody,

But nobody

Can make it out here alone.

Alone, all alone

Nobody, but nobody

Can make it out here alone.