A Preview Of My Life

Here I am, bound with my life's burdens

My mind troubled, my heart heavy-laiden

Unsure of my next move

Arms of safety I've sought to find

But ended up on the devil's footstool

Depths I've searched, and vast widths I've explored

And went on many missions

In search of myself

And found my sanity perched precariously

On the rugged edge of a cliff

Wisdom never found me, yet I craved the words of the wise

Years of hurt and foolish mistakes helped bring me to my demise

And Demise led to arrogance

And arrogance introuced me to pain

Wondering about the days when my sanity i will regain

But my sanity went in, and my enemies went out

Leaving me, standing, wondering,

Filled with infinite doubts

Excavating the earthshaken debris i call my life

To find at least one thing worth living for

Mommy, attacked by the wrath of the carcinogenic bug

Leaving me to think I'd be desolate within myself

With nobody left to snug

Shattering my heart beyond infinity

And creating a dark, lonely space 

With a want to be filled 

To fill the darkness, drew closer to friends

"Friends till the end, not following the trend"

They would always say to keep my mind straying

Then like a bullet to a bird's fragile frame

They'd shatter the fragile heart each day

I then searched for another love

Then lazily gave up my search

Males were not the answer to filling my void

Void ended up capturing my heart

And boy filling the void partially

And for 26 1/2 months, half my darkness was put away

Little by little, the dark void gained light

And little by little, wisdom revealed itself then i learned

"Fool me once, shame on you

Fool me twice, shame on me"

But to be fooled a quad times is stupidity at its best

My true fiends now weeded out, and my true friends recognised

The little light that made way it my void dimly shines

And the darkness slowly fading

With wisdom now on my side

And the Creator now my right hand

Life's burdens minutely fade, and a new being minutely formed